I was told killing with a gun is nothing – it’s like you haven’t killed. For my initiation
they handed me a machete And told me to kill a man.
They said if I refused they would kill me. Isaac was only 14 years old when the
Lord’s Resistance Army came to his village. I told my mom to run. I was going
to lock the house and catch up but they came to fast. Isaac hid inside. When they
torched his house he ran out and was captured. Forced to become child soldiers,
he and many others were given uniforms. My friend refused to put on the uniform.
They made me watch as they stabbed him to death with bayonets. Isaac put on the
uniform. He and two other boys were told to kill a man with machetes. The man cried, “I am innocent!” But the commander screamed, “kill him, kill him!” If we didn’t, we would take
his place. It was the worst moment of my life. He tried to run away many times but
was caught and nearly beaten to death. During one battle he was shot in the leg
and later forced to keep marching. I prayed all the time, “God, get me out of here.
Please get me home.” Knowing he would be killed if he got caught again, Isaac
planned another escape. He went to fetch water but didn’t return. When they came
after me, I hid in a banana plantation. I heard one of them say, “If we catch him,
we’ll cut him into pieces and take him back for meat. We will show everyone this
is what happens when you try to escape.” Eventually the soldiers gave up their
search and left. Isaac could finally go home. When I arrived home, people were
afraid and told their children to stay away from me. I felt so guilty. At night I dreamt of everything I was forced to do and I woke up screaming and shouting.
Then Isaac went to a gathering in his village held by Exile International
– which is supported by CBN’s Orphans Promise. Through one-on-one therapy, singing, dancing and drama – we’ve helped many
former child soldiers and war orphans heal from terrible trauma. You have put
so much take into my life. You helped me love God. I learned not to
focus on the past but to look at what is new. We helped pay Isaac’s tuition and fees and enrolled him in a Christian boarding
school – where he’s made lots of friends. It makes me so happy to be here. My
school uniform is always clean and fresh and it smells so nice. The LRA uniform
was for doing bad things and it was always dirty. When I put on my school
uniform, my thoughts are good and I am so proud to wear it. We also gave Isaac a Bible which he reads as often as he can. Reading my Bible brings me so much peace. I know that God is the reason I survived. Without Him, I would be dead. He knows the
plans He has for me and I know that I am completely free and forgiven. I
appreciate all your help. You will be blessed for it.
My future is bright because of you.